Home Sweet Home

Hello long weekend!! I will be spending my long weekend back home in Alberta with my family. I haven’t been home since Christmas and I am super excited to see everyone. I love living in Vancouver area and the nice weather (even with all the rain), but I love getting to go home and spend time with loved ones. It may only be a short visit but I am sure it will be nice and relaxing. Get my hair done and do some chilling on the farm. This was the first summer that I did not get to go combining with my dad and I am very sad about that. He may be started to work in the fields so maybe I’ll still get a tractor ride in.

I hope everyone has a great long weekend!!

Song of the day: Home by Foo Fighters

Laughter is the Best Medicine

Last Saturday I went to Yuk Yuk's Comedy club in Vancouver. I had been there once in the summer with my sister and had a blast. This time was just as good. The first comedian wasn't the best, but the MC and the other comedians were awesome. I haven't laughed that hard in a long time. This time 'round was on a second date with a guy. I am enjoying dating. I don't think I have ever enjoyed dating this much. Just talking and getting to know the person. And it doesn't hurt that I am in a city with so much more to do than the places I have lived in the past. The Skytrain and I are becoming very good friends, well kind of expensive friends. It isn't cheap to take it every weekend. But I am out exploring and having fun so it is worth it to me. 

Anyway little off topic there, back to the comedy show! 

I grew up watching comedians and have always loved seeing how people can just get up on stage and try to make people laugh. It is so much more than just having a few funny jokes. You have to come up with new jokes for different sets and be able to tell how the room is responding to your material. I mean I could never even get up on stage so that's also impressive. I feel like laughter is some of the best medicine there is out there. Whether from a comedy show or out with friends. It can take you from a bad day to having a great time. I like Yuk Yuk's because it isn't all just professionals going up. It is up and coming comedians, professionals and local people. It's a great environment and so much fun. If you like comedy I recommend going to Yuk Yuk's. They are all over Canada and feature great acts! Or any comedy show. Just go, have fun and LAUGH!!

Song of the Day: Cheating by John Newman

Movie Time!

I finally got to see Deadpool!! I went on a movie date this week to go see it. I have been debating whether to go to it by myself or not and when I got asked out on a date to go I said yes. It was an awesome movie! Date was fine as hell as well. I didn't think I would be able to go on dates with different guys, but it has been an experience. I'm enjoying getting to go out and meet people and exploring different options. There's no handbook on how to date and meet your man. At least I don't think there is... But I am having fun and getting to see Deadpool was awesome. 
I am a huge Ryan Reynolds fan. When I heard he was playing Deadpool I was super excited. Big fan of Marvel movies in general, but you can't go wrong with superhero and Ryan. It's just a perfect combo. He was awesome in the role and it was a hilarious movie. I was trying so hard not to have to go to the bathroom in the movie, but sadly I had to. I missed the Stan Lee cameo, but that's life. 
I hope everyone had a great weekend!!

Song of the Day: Creep by Post Modern Jukebox

Not What I Expected

It is funny how one minute things are going so well and you are having so much fun and the next minute things turn to shit (pardon my French). You start getting to know someone and actually opening up about some pretty heavy topics, not things that you would normally talk about with just anyone and that other persons starts to throw those things in your face. For example I had a pretty abusive relationship in my past and still have some little things that can set me off. I am pretty open about what they are in relationships because I don't see them as a negative anymore, I just see them as things that I'm still working on, but have made me a stronger person. Having those things throw in my face when talking about what direction a new relationship is taking hurts so much. After having a few great dates with a guy and being able to be so open, those things that we had talked about were thrown in my face. It wasn't in a questioning way of trying to be understanding it was rude and insensitive. When confronted about it he played it off as if he didn't mean them that way, but then did it again with something else. I've never felt so judged by a person who kept saying they wanted to know me better. He referred to the things I opened up about as "my issues". News flash we all have issues and we all deal with them differently. He was no saint either. There was no way I was going to use the things he told me to put him down or make him feel like less of a person. I mean from the get go there were a couple red flags, but I was like I'm going to just see where things go and see what happens. Well that didn't work out so well. Those red flags turned into deal breakers. I want kids eventually, he HATES children. He would get mad when there was kids walking down the street or in his direct vicinity. It was bad. I know that it was only in the last year or so that I decided that I even wanted to have kids so I thought well he may be in the same boat, but I was very wrong. He told me that I would have to change my life plans of wanting children if I wanted things to work out with him. When I told him that wasn't going to happen he then told me that we had an expiry date. So I told him that the expiry date had passed and things were not going to work out. He didn't understand when I said that. He thought things were fine, that I would be okay with changing my life to suit his. I am not someone who can be pushed around in a relationship anymore. I've been that girl, but I'm not anymore. I know who I am and what I want. I will compromise on some things. You have to in a relationship, but I am not willing to change myself completely to fit someone else. This is all coming after only 3 dates with the guy. 
I was made to feel like a terrible person for knowing what I want and being able to say no this isn't what I want after only 3 dates. I don't want to waste my time or anyone else's time on something that has no future. It's not fair to anybody. I don't want to miss out on meeting someone who has more potential because I'm in something that's not serious. I'd rather go on a bunch of dates with different guys to find someone who there's more of a chance of a future. 
This feels like a total vent session, but I think that there are plenty of people out there who get stuck into something just because they don't want to be lonely. I've been that person and it took so much out of me. I had to learn how to be happy on my own and take care of me first. It can be a hard concept, but I know that I came out as a better person. It helped me to discover what I want in life and what I don't. 
I like to look on the positive in life and have fun. I don't want to be dragged down by the negative. I know I have bad days and I am so thankful for the wonderful ladies I have in my life that are there for me. I love you ladies!

Song of the day: Hide Away by Daya