Seeing Happiness

So important to remember!

As I was thinking of what to write for my blog, something that someone dear to me said really resonated with me. I was Snapchatting with a friend and they commented that I look different so, of course, I went straight to my cousin to ask her. She told me that I look happier. Which surprised me. To me, I'm feeling stressed out with the school semester coming to an end and course planning for next semester. But she said that that is good stress, to an extent, and that it's not worry about other people. And that is what resonated with me. I have been dealing with so much of trying to please other people and worry about others, that it was draining me. I think that I've finally come to a place where I can let those people go. I let go of people who were creating drama in my life and who seemed to thrive on it. I am most definitely a helping person. I want to help people, and be there for everyone, but it isn't realistic. I have to take care of myself. Today I feel like I am in such a good place with taking care of me and not worrying so much about what others are doing. I was seeing a guy and we decided to be just friends and I was so worried about how that was going to look and worrying that I wouldn't be able to do it. Until we hung out. The dynamics were a little different, but we are still the same people and it was fun and chill. I realised that I was so caught up in the idea that I needed to be in a relationship to be happy, that when I recognised that and let go of it, I became happier. I was going on dates with a guy who was nice and all, but there just wasn't a click. And I kept going back!! I could see us being friends, but anymore isn't going to happen. Once I finally gave myself permission to let go, I got happier. I love having control and it seems as soon as I let go, I become happier. So I want to give a big shout out to my friend and my cousin for saying I do look different. It made me take a step back and look at myself to see what was different. 

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!! 

Song of the Day: New Rules (Acoustic) by Dua Lipa